unlucky

Well I got my hopes up for this amazing place! And I didn't get it, everyone says "there will be better" but really I don't think so...

2 bed 2 bath, nice kitchen, two car garage, allows pets, access to a swimming pool and hot tub, rent includes internet and cable, washer and dryer hook ups, lots of storage, way cute layout. Literally less than a 500 feet from where I work. No yard work, No snow shoveling..

How exactly do you beat that? You don't. I am seriously thinking my luck has run out, or well ran out around dec/jan this year... Damn bad experiences.

shit happens but you just can't be happy about it, I have done nothing but sit in my own self wallowing tonight. I am seriously bummed.

I did however apply to be a med tech at Sea world :) It is completely a shot in the dark but who know what I really am supposed to do or where I should go at this point in my life. I feel so lost and confused. But I do know I have always dreamed of working with marine animals and would have an amazing time there. But I am not exactly the person they are look for... I probably shouldn't even talk about it, I hate getting my hopes up and then crushed.

This song was on the radio right after I found out I didn't get my dream apartment:

I can't help but think that my happiest days are behind me... how depressing!

Oh well tomorrow is a new day, and hopefully a better one :)