Confidence

You've heard the quote "sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together" Well I was convinced that what I had with Blair was the "better". My head knows now that I was wrong and my heart is coming around to the idea. I think better things are starting to come forward. The most advice I have gotten about this whole situation is to focus on myself and I haven't been able to do that fully until now.

I feel more like a whole person than the whole time we dated, because it was always a "we" thing, kind of a package deal. My individuality that I had before is starting to come back and I know that I can and will get back on that horse (metaphorically speaking)

I have always been a lucky person and that has to do with my perspective on things; I read part of the book called "the secret" it basically states that if you think positively it will happen. So instead of saying "I hope I don't get sick" you have to think "I won't get sick" and right now I'm saying "I will be happy". It is better to fake it till you make it than to just wait for happiness to find you. I have been faking for the first two weeks but now I think I have found something to make me truly happy.

It won't be easy but it will be worth it. I got some great advice from a great friend at work. She said "you have to be happy in the present because you can never get it back" I know some people will think I am out of my mind crazy but honestly I am ready to face the music. So its been just over 3 weeks now and I feel like my roller coaster is starting to level out, coming to the real end of the ride. Now its time to find a new ride and enjoy the new twists and turns.

I might be getting a puppy like this one